Caroline M from USA writes:
We began trying to conceive after being married for four years. After about six months my periods became irregular and I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome and absence of ovulation. My doctor told me there was no chance I’d get pregnant without help, so I was prescribed Clomid.
I began to ovulate and was very optimistic. After five months on the Clomid, however, I still was not pregnant. I was more confused, angry and hurt than ever. My husband and I felt we should pray about whether or not to continue with the medicine. Then the Lord gave me two words. The first was Isaiah 53: 4-5: “By His wounds we are healed”. The second was 2 Chronicles 16:2 “Asa became diseased in his feet, and his malady was severe; yet in his disease he did not seek the Lord, but the physicians. So Asa rested with his fathers; he died in the 41st year of his reign”. The Lord was clearly telling me to put my trust in Him and not the medicine. This was a personal word for me at that time, I am not against medicine and I know God uses it. It was just that my hope was in the doctors and not in the Lord and He could not bless me. So I stopped taking the medicine and decided to wait on the Lord. This was extremely difficult to do as I wanted to do anything to facilitate the process. But as I obeyed God, His peace began to fill me and guard me.
My cycles became normal and I was healed of the hormonal imbalance that had made me stop ovulating. I found myself able to trust God and focus on other things for a while. Then several of my close friends became pregnant and I crashed emotionally. I kept wavering between hope and fear. Around this time God led me to the New Life Ministries website. I was astounded to find that God’s Word said, over and over, that He wanted me to have children. Once I knew it was God’s will, I was able to stop wavering. I had something solid to stand on. One morning I had a huge breakthrough; the Holy Spirit came upon me in power and I knew that I needed to confess my healing and command infertility to leave my body. I stood up and spoke this out loud by the power to the Holy Spirit, and I knew that God was doing the things that I spoke. That is when I conceived my children in my spirit.
The last few months before I got pregnant were very challenging. But God gave me the grace to press on and endure and wait for the fulfilment of His promise. He also gave me a vision of my son during a special time of prayer. I knew he was coming, I just didn’t know when. (Looking back, I realized that God gave me that vision the very weekend that my son was conceived!)
When my son was born, all I could think was “he was worth waiting for”. God healed my body and wiped away my tears. He turned my mourning into dancing. As it says in Proverbs, “hope deferred makes the heart sick, but hope fulfilled is a tree of life.” God’s Tree of Life is His cross, where we can exchange sickness and despair for healing and hope. Seek God’s face with all your heart and strength. He does fulfil the barren women’s dreams; He sets us in our homes as joyful mothers of children. AMEN